Deep

  I think about how time flies, sometimes I pray for time to go faster because there's so much to look forward too. Other times, the times I want to live in forever, make me wish I had the power to freeze time. I feel powerless over my life when its hectic, and I feel even more powerless over my life when it becomes mundane. I can never escape from my constant need for wanting something more or less in my life, I’m selfish because of it in fact.

  I often wonder where I’m going to be in 5 years, it's not an uncommon question to ask a teenager. Teenagers have a whole life ahead of them and its a really amazing thing to think about. But then you get to thinking, and then you realize its scary. You could waste every minute of your life if you tried, you could waste every minute if your life if you didn’t try. I have more power than I think, and on the other hand, I am nothing in comparison to the people in this world who have power.

  What does power mean to you? Is power money, networking, hard work? Power could be knowledge, self-awareness, or even just being born into the right family. I have so many questions but the answer depends on who I ask. Good and evil have the same face.

  I think I have it rough, I think I have a lot on my plate. And I feel more guilty than anyone could imagine the way I feel towards the life I'm blessed with. I want more some days and others I would be happy with nothing. I hope its just some teenage hormones making me so indecisive and an insomniac. I don’t sleep like I used to, I don’t think like I used to. For better or worse can be debated, I think I’m happier though. 

  I remember hearing something along the lines of “We don’t run towards everything like when we were kids, why were we always running?” I think about that a lot. When did I stop running?

Mia Mason