To Be Honest, I Just Want To Be Happy

  To be honest, I just want to be happy. And I don’t always know what will make me happy so I end up trying out new things, like throwing myself into blogging every day, because you never know what you like until you try it. What I’m trying to say is that maybe blogging won’t be the number one activity that makes me happy someday like it is now, so then whats the point of doing it if I’m not giving 100%?

  All I know is that in a few months I’m going to be traveling across the country visiting family in multiple states, being around family I don't get to see all that often makes me the happier than I ever thought I could be. Then After that, I'm going spend a month or two with my grandparents, my cousins, and my best friends that I only see once a year.  I can’t even begin to explain how happy that makes me just by thinking about it. And after all that I'm going to be in another country for the first time and by myself. Experiencing a different culture, different people, different food! Traveling makes me over the moon happy.

  Blogging might not be the number one priority for my happiness in a few months. I think I mistook my drive for my stubbornness on this one now that I'm thinking about it. I am going to end my 365 days of blogging challenge because I can foresee it getting in the way of my happiness and me manifesting it into a burden. I don't want to see it as a burden, but I know that if I end up doing it in the middle of when I save 100% of my time for my family that's what it's going to turn into.

  It'll be harder than you think for me to just stop blogging. I don't like to break my winning streaks, I don't like to see myself as a quitter. All I know is that I'm realizing there are a lot of things in this world that is more important than writing blog posts every day. I know that I cant multitask when it comes to spending time with my family. They are what makes me happy, they are my priority.

  I am going to continue to write every day on my own once I end blogging. as I mentioned in the comments of my I Really Don't Know What To Do blog post I said, “I like the self-acknowledgement of blogging every day, It’s like therapy, to write what keeps me up at night and to share how I’m dealing with my life at that moment in time." I write blog posts that I don't even post half the time because I get 'too real' and share way too much personal information. I realized how much one-on-one time I need to talk with myself sometimes, like the way I’m talking myself down right now.

  I wouldn't have started blogging if it weren't for Praxis' 12 Days Of Christmas Blogging Challenge, and it sure was a challenge. It challenged the writing skills that I thought were amazing, turns out I make a lot more grammatical errors than I thought. It taught me that I can be committed to something like this every day for over sixty days(if we count 12 Days Of Christmas Blogging). And it taught me a lot about my creative thinking process. 

  When the time comes I am going to end my blogging challenge and not feel bad about it. I took from it what I could, I put 100% of my effort into this project, and I loved every bit of it. It was fun, it made me happy, and most importantly I need to remember that I can always upload a blog post once I get back.

Mia Mason